I went to Church all my life as a kid and even later on in life but something just wasn't right and when I told people last year I got Born again they were like "what?! I thought you were?" I didn't drink, only used bad words but ever so often, didn't party, dressed nice, got friendliest in High School, and best dressed but GOD know my real heart! NOBODY knew, not even my wife of now going on 16 years and the people I worked with for over 13 years, but I really got to thinking would I really go to Heaven or would I go to Hell. In my eyes and every other person's eyes I was a very good person but when I really went through the Law of the Ten Commandments, it was like GOD please forgive me Please LORD JESUS, and then I repented and put my Faith, 100% of my Faith, in the JESUS CHRIST and HIM alone and not in my own goodness. I'm even in tears now as I'm writing this to you just thinking of that day in May 2007 at 2 a.m. in the morning, when the Law did it's job and worked as a mirror to really show me how dirty I really was to a HOLY, HOLY, HOLY GOD not a God that just loves me but a GOD
that saved me even after, I
1. Never always put GOD 1st - No, TV and video games were more important
2. I never bowed down to anything but I did make a god that was OK if I
sinned all the time, because my god thought it's OK to lust just don't touch
3. I had used God's name bad and even lightly
4. I had not always put even a little time aside for GOD, the GOD that gave me life I never had time for Him
5. I had not always done what I was told by my parents and even did a few things they never know.
6. Never murdered anyone, but boy did I get mad at a lot of people too many times to count.
7. Yes, I had lust in my heart, even had sex before I was married
8. I never stole anything big but maybe some gum as a kid or even a soda once
9. Have I ever lied? Yes. I'm 40 years old ... if I was to put every lie on paper man would I need a big truck or more of paper
10. Boy did I ever want that fast car, the prettiest girls in school, and a million $
See GOD is so HOLY that the Bible says even our good deeds are like fifty rags to Him.
Isaiah 64:6 (NASB)"For all of us have become like one who is unclean, And all our righteous deeds are like a filthy garment"
I was living fine till I really looked deep at myself with GOD’s Law ( The Ten Commandments )
Why am I putting this up here?, well after talking to lots of people, even some that were Pastors -
(Matthew 7:21-23 "Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.")
and when I just asked them to really look at their self with the LAW of the Ten Commandments just once, then just like me, the LORD Convicted them of their sins and brought them to true repentance and faith in JESUS CHRIST AND CHRIST alone for Salvation.
It's really hard to tell you what I mean, but let’s try this:
I have a pan of hot water but not really sure if it's hot. I mean it's not bubbling so I put my hand in it and it's hot alright. That's what happen to me. Not everyone has to go thought the Law, you're right, but if you're not really sure, I mean you know that your walk is not really the way it should be and if you are really thinking 'maybe I should really try this because, man I do OK ... then on Friday or Saturday I really live like the devil but I ask GOD to forgive me, but again I just keep doing it', the Bible says you will know them by their fruit if they are of the good tree they will have good fruit and that doesn't mean just around your family at Church, because like I said I was really good, so good I even thought I was good. The Bible says everyone will proclaim their own goodness, but then when I got up and pulled back the curtain of the Holy of Holies and looked at myself though GOD's eyes with the Ten Commandments, do I still fight with sin? Yes. But, not like I had ever before. Like I said it's really hard to tell, but I really feel and understand the Cross and THE WORD of GOD just draws me more and more. I couldn't even put the Word of GOD down after I truly got born again and I read the whole Bible in like 5 or so months because I couldn't even put it down and it just draws me so much I 'm on the 2nd time and I'm not telling you that for any reason but to tell you what happen to me and what was really different than any other time I had tried to read. It was like putting glasses on man and the pages really come out. I still have to make myself put it down because I know I have to go to bed or go to work. It's like it says, it really becomes a supernatural book!!!
Anyways this is not for everyone.
I feel like there are some out there that know what I'm talking about and if I can help just one then to me no matter what anyone says about me that's ok because I'm just another sinner that didn't even really know I was until I looked at myself with the Ten Commandments that took off the fig leafs of myself righteousness and showed me the truth of my sin and I really found out I couldn't hide from GOD, maybe my friends and wife, but really GOD knew my really deep down heart.
I pray that the Spirit of JESUS CHRIST would open the eyes to whoever is out there that the LORD is talking to.
